March had a contract over him, then deleted his FOLLOW ALL MY ORDERS order, then deleted his safe guard against Shark attacking him by nulling out the contract altogether. Which, like, the deletion of constraints controlling him should be a good thing, right? Wrong. To him that's shoving his powerlessness in his face. Parading LOOK I DON'T EVEN NEED THESE BINDINGS TO CONTROL YOU. There's not a damn thing you can do about it anyway, is there? March is not a good or moral person, so understanding March has limits about mind-control and shit due to trauma is just out of his realm of experience, so clearly there was a plot there, and it was in a way worse than the contracts because the pressure of the contracts were still there as in THIS WAS SOMETHING HE HAD OVER YOU so he clearly hasn't given those up but now the rules and consequences are unknowns. Which was fucking scary, and Shark has only recently been reacquainted with fear.
So his mental well-being and emotional well-being was steadily degrading under that, and his usual coping methods were blocked from him. The last straw was in Mary and System's game, nnnnot because of the game stakes or anything the other teams were panicked or worried about! Not even because of his death! But because of the way the decision making for Celeste went down, where March attempted to make him bribe March for March's support in supporting March's argument to Rolan. :') So not only did he not get an opinion he would have to bribe a teammate to argue their own damn opinion with someone who wouldn't listen to him because lol who gives a fuck about anything you say, the words have no weight coming from him.
So! This post happened. :') March and Shark off-comm as per usual so in case things devolve too much we don't end up with a torture post on-comm. Always good to preempt these things.
But basically going into that March had no fucking idea how bad everything was wearing on Shark, and Shark was too drunk to really shut down as much as he usually does for dealing with him.
And long story short: He found out he had nothing to fear. March's power was a bluff, he got in a lucky shot once and kept lifting up the hammer and threatening to drop it again on that weak point, but it has in fact long healed over. SHARK IS MORE POWERFUL BETWEEN THE TWO OF THEM. HE DOESN'T NEED TO FEEL PAIN. YES HE'S LESS COMBAT CAPABLE BUT HE CAN DO A GOOD MINDFUCK BUT HE'S NOT EVEN INTERESTED IN THAT. HE HAS HIS FUCKING CONTROL BACK. denial coping mechanism? BACK IN PLACE.
Before fear prevented him from just convincing himself nothing was wrong and he was okay with the state of everything, because by doing that he would doubtlessly end up blinding himself to things again (like warning signs), which is what got him so fucked in the first place. Fear said No Do NOT repeat those errors.
Now he's like \o/ FEAR CAN GO FUCK ITSELF I'M ON TOPPPP.
and if teammates try and shatter that well uh fuck you dudes I can fuck you up but hopefully I won't have to because we've got enough external enemies that I'd prefer we all get along? But try and silence me or speak over me and you're going to fucking regret it. >)
SO. HE'S DOING BETTER.
Would you ever hypothetically app an OC to deco if you had like infinite slots and whatever appropriate team had space and blah blah blah other considerations?
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March had a contract over him, then deleted his FOLLOW ALL MY ORDERS order, then deleted his safe guard against Shark attacking him by nulling out the contract altogether. Which, like, the deletion of constraints controlling him should be a good thing, right? Wrong. To him that's shoving his powerlessness in his face. Parading LOOK I DON'T EVEN NEED THESE BINDINGS TO CONTROL YOU. There's not a damn thing you can do about it anyway, is there? March is not a good or moral person, so understanding March has limits about mind-control and shit due to trauma is just out of his realm of experience, so clearly there was a plot there, and it was in a way worse than the contracts because the pressure of the contracts were still there as in THIS WAS SOMETHING HE HAD OVER YOU so he clearly hasn't given those up but now the rules and consequences are unknowns. Which was fucking scary, and Shark has only recently been reacquainted with fear.
So his mental well-being and emotional well-being was steadily degrading under that, and his usual coping methods were blocked from him. The last straw was in Mary and System's game, nnnnot because of the game stakes or anything the other teams were panicked or worried about! Not even because of his death! But because of the way the decision making for Celeste went down, where March attempted to make him bribe March for March's support in supporting March's argument to Rolan. :') So not only did he not get an opinion he would have to bribe a teammate to argue their own damn opinion with someone who wouldn't listen to him because lol who gives a fuck about anything you say, the words have no weight coming from him.
So! This post happened. :') March and Shark off-comm as per usual so in case things devolve too much we don't end up with a torture post on-comm. Always good to preempt these things.
But basically going into that March had no fucking idea how bad everything was wearing on Shark, and Shark was too drunk to really shut down as much as he usually does for dealing with him.
And long story short: He found out he had nothing to fear. March's power was a bluff, he got in a lucky shot once and kept lifting up the hammer and threatening to drop it again on that weak point, but it has in fact long healed over. SHARK IS MORE POWERFUL BETWEEN THE TWO OF THEM. HE DOESN'T NEED TO FEEL PAIN. YES HE'S LESS COMBAT CAPABLE BUT HE CAN DO A GOOD MINDFUCK BUT HE'S NOT EVEN INTERESTED IN THAT. HE HAS HIS FUCKING CONTROL BACK. denial coping mechanism? BACK IN PLACE.
Before fear prevented him from just convincing himself nothing was wrong and he was okay with the state of everything, because by doing that he would doubtlessly end up blinding himself to things again (like warning signs), which is what got him so fucked in the first place. Fear said No Do NOT repeat those errors.
Now he's like \o/ FEAR CAN GO FUCK ITSELF I'M ON TOPPPP.
and if teammates try and shatter that well uh fuck you dudes I can fuck you up but hopefully I won't have to because we've got enough external enemies that I'd prefer we all get along? But try and silence me or speak over me and you're going to fucking regret it. >)
SO. HE'S DOING BETTER.
Would you ever hypothetically app an OC to deco if you had like infinite slots and whatever appropriate team had space and blah blah blah other considerations?